nos·tal·gi·a (nŏ-stāl’jə, nə-)
n.

1. A bittersweet longing for things, persons, or situations of the past.

Nostalgia is never a good thing , for me. Somehow, when I think of things in the past, its most often never fond. Like if I think of a particularly good meal, I don’t think of it with joy in my heart. I think “why the hell didn’t I eat more?” . If I think of something more emotional, like maybe a conversation I had with someone, or a a particular moment in time, I never look back on it with happiness. I’m always thinking of a hundred better ways the conversation could have gone, like how I should have probably shut up at one point, or how I should said something when I knew I had to say it.

When I hear a particular song associated with someone or something, it always gets me down. I think about them or the time, and I miss them or the time.So why make the associations? Why have the memories when they only end up making me feel horrible?