One last time

In a couple of days, I’ll be beginning my last year of school. According to the school calender, January 25th is scheduled to be, officially, my last day. I’ll have to go back for my results and other things of course. Then, the next time I go to school, I will have to wear that “alumni” badge.

A lot of times, I’ve thought about how it would be if I had been one of those kids who’s studied in different schools. Would the changes have made me a different person? They would have, I guess. Maybe I would have made friends a lot more easily. But then, when I hear a “oh my god you’re so lucky to have studied in one school”, I think of how lucky I am. To have stayed in one environment, to have grown up in a familiar place that has provided consistency in my life without me even knowing it. To be able to greet almost every teacher that passes by me in the corridor because I’ve been taught by most of them. To able to visit the Elementary School building, and walk inside all the classes I’ve been taught in. To be able to drink from the same water fountain I drank from since I could barely write. To walk past the sand pit I played in and made “soft sand” in. To look at the bridge in the Adventure Playground and remember how scared I used to be when I had to jump off to prove to my friends that I wasn’t a chicken . If I had gone to different schools, my memories would have been scattered all over the place.

It’s impossible to list all the things this school has done for me. No matter how cliched it sounds, this school gave me everything I know.

Expect a lot more school posts like this. Sigh.

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My Moment

Sometimes one of the hardest things in the world for me is to stop “living” for a second, and ask myself if I’m really taking in everything around me.

Last night, I couldn’t sleep ( I later realized that my pillow was missing – oh, the dependency on pillows!) , but there really wasn’t anything I could do other than just shut my eyes and try and count sheep. However, after a valiant effort, I still couldn’t get to sleep. So what did I do? I walked over to the balcony, and lay down and looked up at stars..

No really, I did.

What made the experience more fulfilling, was that beside me lay not the man of my dreams (haha joke), but my dog, Judo. And for once, he lay down quietly by my side, without getting up every two seconds to investigate some strange sounds ( even though I could hear some dog barking in the distance, which is usually enough to trigger him off into an answering volley of barks).

So we lay there, for I don’t exactly know how long, but enough to really make me feel.. something. I’m not a big believer in spiritual or religious things, and so I rarely take the time to actually sit and “be at peace with myself” . but this time I felt like doing this.

I realized that by staring fixedly at one star, it looked like it was moving , and that if I stared long enough, I stopped seeing the ugly cable that runs across from one end of the compound to the next, marring the view of the sky. I realized, lying there looking up at the stars with my ferocious, “biter” dog sleeping like a baby next to me, that my life ( contrary to the typical 17-year-old point of view) really isn’t so bad after all =)

Righto, old chap

Too low to find my way
Too high to wonder why
I’ve touched this place before
Somewhere in another time
Now I can hear the sun
The clouds drifting through the blinds
A half a million thoughts
Are flowing through my mind

A satellite recalled your voice
Sent me round the world again
All the night you’ve dreamt away
Sent me round my heart again
One touch upon my lips
And all my thoughts are clear
I feel your smoky mist
Up to the stratosfear

-Lebanese Blonde by Theivery Corporation

Warm rain

Wait, wait
Here it comes
catch it, don’t let go
let me see you travel slow

Roll, roll
So I can feel
drop now, right here
right where I can see you
(but you’re hiding)

No, no!
You cannot decieve me so!
Fall, I’m waiting
I’m waiting to let you flow